Am I A Model?

Am I A Model?
JulieM Aug 12, 2013 20:01

The answer to that? Definitely not. Not tall enough (although I'm pretty tall in China if I wear heels), small boobs that disappear if I lay down flat, and wide hips. Slightly strange facial features that make my nationality indeterminable (that can be a plus in some ways).
But, as many foreigners have experienced, in China you can be many things that you might not otherwise have an opportunity to be. So, I am now a "freelance model" haha. I got a second job offer lined up, so this is now my spare time way to bring in some extra money.
I didn't love the experience, honestly, but I prefer it to teaching kids. My husband loves modeling, performing, and basically anything related to that, and he was openly jealous that I got another call back to model for the photography studio. I'd give him the chance any day, because he is much more of a natural than me and really wants to do it. But hey, makes for more good stories and funny photos for me. :-)


If you are facebook friends with me you probably saw these shots, along with others, accompanied by humorous captions (because really, the whole experience was rather humorous...the poses they wanted seemed so odd to me).
Anyhow, this brings me to another in China. Honestly, I feel like there are SO many beautiful women in China (and their feet are all smaller than mine). I feel insecure around them sometimes. But then other times, China can give you a bit of an ego boost to make up for it. They love my white skin and big eyes, even my nose (which I think is weird). I get compliments on my figure a lot (even though I hate it).
As many women have lamented over the years, why can't we be comfortable in our own skins? Chinese women often spend money on products to make their skin whiter, when I love their tans. They wear strange, fake looking eye contacts and try to make their eyes appear larger when their narrow, Asian eyes are so exotic and beautiful to many of us foreigners. I LOVE black hair, and yet many of my friends prefer to dye it.
As I've grown older, of course, I've learned to embrace the things about myself I like, and try to find some positives even about the things I hate. 
My feet are big (and I can't find shoes here a lot of times) and I can share shoes with my hubby. My boobs are small, but my back doesn't hurt, and most shirts will fit me -My hips are big, but they are good for balancing things on and will be good baby-making hips. 
For my dear Chinese friends, I hope to remind them too that so many foreigners think they are beautiful just as they are...I personally think all my friends are SO cute!

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Jan 18, 2014 06:33 Report Abuse



nicely written that's how i also ended up working as a DJ for sometime although i know nothing about being a DJ haha

Aug 28, 2013 13:20 Report Abuse



hehe, that sounds like a fun experience!

Aug 29, 2013 13:46 Report Abuse



Good going and a nicely written article.

Aug 17, 2013 12:26 Report Abuse



thank you!

Aug 29, 2013 13:46 Report Abuse



Nice post Julie...yeah China is strange like that. Blonds are considered trophies here.

Aug 14, 2013 10:41 Report Abuse



yeah, I had blonde hair once before...that was a mistake since I don't really like getting stared at, and that just made it worse, haha.

Aug 29, 2013 13:47 Report Abuse



Perhaps this blog/post was really meant for women mostly, but I came upon it and read it,liked it. It is a refreshing perspective from a woman about herself and I hope many other women and men will read this. Maybe these it will help women to be more comfortable with themselves.

Aug 14, 2013 10:41 Report Abuse



Thank you for the kind words, I really do hope it does help women to be more comfortable in their own skin! :)

Aug 29, 2013 13:47 Report Abuse